Artistic Stimulation

Two and half years ago, I graduated from Penn State and have been trying to make myself fit into the corporate world since. I realize now that this was a mistake, and a waste of precious time. Instead of training to hone and improve on my singing, I obsessed over the idea of grad school, believing that was my only way to a successful career. It is true that one can’t do much with a B.S in psychology. At least a Masters or Ph.D is necessary. But I don’t want to pursue psychology. I don’t want to pursue a field just for security. That’s not a good enough reason for me to invest years of my life, not to mention tons of money in pursuit of something.

At the same time, making singing into a career is risky, and I want a career so badly. I want to have kids someday, and I don’t want to be a stay at home mom my whole life. (By the way, there’s nothing wrong with being a stay at home mom, it’s just not for me). I’ve always dreamed of a successful, fulfilling career, just like I’ve always dreamed of having kids. And there’s only one thing I’ve ever been able to really see myself doing, and that’s singing. That has never changed or not been the case, not for a single day of my life. I can’t ignore it any more, and I regret feeling like I needed to.

Whew, I didn’t know I could be so longwinded! In any case, the “artistic stimulation” mentioned in the title of this post has come in the form of ballet classes:) I took ballet briefly when I was in middle school, like, over ten years ago. I learned that dancing is not my forte. I’ve always felt fairly awkward in my body, and my muscle tone has always been poor. But I do miss ballet, and I think it would be really good for me to get back into it and really throw myself into the arts. Not to mention I love participating in musical theater, and most musicals involve a good amount of dancing, so having some training in this area can only benefit me. I am now enrolled in a five week intro to ballet class, and ridiculously excited about it:)

This ballet class has also inspired me to take the next step in my hopeful singing career: voice lessons! I am now looking for a really good vocal coach, hopefully in the DC area. I’d like to audition for a vocal coach, and hopefully be accepted as their student. I feel like I’d get serious, hardcore training from a voice teacher that requires an audition because they would only accept me as their student if they saw (or rather heard) real potential in me. And this isn’t a hobby to me. I want to be trained so I can perform professionally. If anyone reading this blog knows of any good vocal coaches in the DC area, let me know! I can’t wait to move forward with this, I’ve put it off long enough.

I think that’s it for now. Hopefully in my next post, I’ll report on actually doing something, instead of talking about how I want to maybe do it soon. It’s time I make something happen for myself.